"This time"

How many times have I said it? There have been so many "this times" in my life:

• This time will be different
• This time I will stick to my plan
• This time I won't tell anyone so they can just be surprised by my hot body (or so that if I fail, there was no expectation).
• This time I will drink weight loss shakes
• This time I will count points
• This time I will eat pre-packaged foods
• This time I will exercise daily

You get my point. Some of these "this times" have produced pretty good results (I'm down 65 lbs. from my heaviest...woo hoo!) and then others were total flops (like when I vomited every time I ate the pre-packaged foods...not exactly the way I wanted to lose)! I'm tired of looking for that fast fix and frustrated beyond belief at some of the ways I have been duped into thinking some of these things are good for me! Sure, I'd love to be hot...who, in their right mind, wouldn't? But, probably because I'm a little older and have been a big girl long enough to have forgotten the "hot" factor, I don't care so much about that now. I want to be healthy. I want to do my part to avoid sickness and maintain strength. That is why "this time" is the last "this time". Today we stop the start-over and my personal preference the "On Monday". It's time to really adopt a lifestyle change. No fads, no diet plans. I'm over all that. Will I change overnight? Absolutely not! I always admired my dad because he had that ability: to change his entire thinking in a moment. He didn't pass that on to me, so you'll get to hear my struggles and victories as I strive for progress, not perfection!